Change

I've learned over the years that change has to come and I really accept what life brings to me. But the last week I'm really sad, so excuse me while I have a "woobie hoo" moment... I've really been missing My Mom and Dad lately :( I think with it being Mother's day that may have stirred this up. Who Knows. It's difficult when all you can buy your Mom is flowers for her grave. So much for thoughtfulness. And when I got Skylee's graduation cards and they had my dad's name on them (Her middle name is my Dad's) I couldn't help to think how he would love to be to her Graduation. He would be hootin' and hollerin' in the bleachers. I feel cheated that they are not going to be there. She hasn't mentioned it, but I'm sure she's thinking between them and Josh that some of the people she loves the most are not going to be able to be there. It's got to be hurting her a bit. She's been as emotional as me lately. I don't know, I was thinking, I wish I could have them come back just for that day... but then I'm sure I'd want one more, and then one more, and then one more... I'm sorry for the sadness I feel, I know people have bigger and more difficult problems, I just am emotional and need to vent. I feel empty :( Probably because my baby is graduating... You think?